Friday, August 28, 2009

::礼物::

感觉有段时间没update blog 了~ ^^ 前几天在公司翻阅报纸时,读到了一篇文章 - 遗失的美好. 是篇很简短的文章~ 不过内容提的是,人往往在生命中,都会不断的追逐更美好的事物,总是会觉得自己拥有的不够好,不知足... 然而却忽略了自己所拥有的...

读了这篇文章, 感觉和自己当下的心情,想法,有点像~ 之前的自己,感觉... 太过贪婪了~ 对于自己所在乎的东西,总会想要紧紧地抓住... 因为越害怕失去的感觉,就会抓的越紧... 可是后来才发现,原来每件事情在抓的越紧时,会让自己难以呼吸... 也会忘了珍惜目前所拥有的,失去的,更多...

也许是一直以来,我对自己的要求太高了~ 总会想要做得更好,要求更高~ 所以,到后来才发现原来自己做得不好时,就会觉得很辛苦,很不好受...

回过头去看看从前的自己... 我给自己太大的压力了~ 对于无法预知及控制的事情,总会有很多的不安全感... 因为害怕失去的感觉,所以心里总会有很多顾虑,担心... 有时会搞得自己闷闷不乐的~

有一晚...在驾着车时,听到了'礼物'这首歌~ 因为这首歌曾经让我很感动,所以很喜欢~ 但是那时候,听着这首歌,突然让我有种...觉悟的感觉~

其实幸福...一直都在我身边,我应该去珍惜的~ 因为我所拥有的一切,包括爱.都是上天赐于我,最美好的礼物 ^^
这些礼物,都并不是理所当然应该属于我的...所以我更加应该要懂得感恩~ 就算这些礼物的'时效'并不长久,或许我有一天会失去它,但我也依然会感觉幸福~ 因为我曾经拥有...

从前的我,浪费了太多时间在追求不实际的"安全感"...所以在未来,与其浪费,我会把握更多时间去珍惜我爱的人,珍惜拥有的一切... 因为明白到,幸福抓得越紧时,只会让自己越不开心~ 一切就顺其自然,顺心而意吧~ 想做的事,想说的话,我也会义无反顾的去做~ 不会让自己后悔的 ^^

♥ Love is the ordinary miracle we all have in our life... ♥

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Sorry....

Sorry...is all i could tell now...

我伤害了我很珍惜的一个好朋友... 我知道是我的错... 也知道我无法弥补对她的伤害~

-我只想对她说: 对不起... 我不是有心要瞒着你的. 我不知道你会不会原谅我. 但我只想让你知道,我是真心的当你是好朋友对待~ 因为重视我们之间的友情,我很多次都尝试想要告诉你...有好几次,在上课时,只有我们两个,我真得很想说... 但我总是没有勇气,话都总是梗在喉咙里...对不起... 因为我的懦弱,伤害了你... 我有我的苦衷, 我知道你也许不想再听我的解释. 但我真心的希望,可以得到你的原谅... 和你在一起读书的日子,是最开心的~ 我真得很珍惜我们之间的友谊...我很希望我们能像从前一样,开心的,做好朋友~

真心的,相你说对不起-


今天真得很沮丧...因为第一次心觉得,内疚得痛... 认识她这么久,第一次看到她因为我而不开心~

我是真的很内疚,很害怕会影响我们之间的友谊...

所以真的很自责...为什么我总是没有勇气面对所有的事情? 以至于... 伤害了我最关心的朋友~

希望一切...都可以获得解决~


Pray for my best friend... to be happy always~

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

::Lost......::

今天工作到12点多时, email 突然收到了成绩... 打开的那一瞬间,心里顿时觉得好沉重...

结果如我所预料的... 我 failed F4, Law. 虽然是早有预感,但心里还是觉得很难受... 有点接受不到事实~
正好到午餐时间...也吃不下~ 突然好想哭, 就跑去了厕所里哭...

我只觉得...很 lost... 很希望有个人可以告诉自己,下一步该怎么走~ 第一次觉得...如此迷惘...

中午一整天都没心思工作~ 本来不想join sport club bowling act 的, 但不想扫兴,所以还是去了~ florence 说,要尽量享受过程,心情很快就可以恢复的 ^^

很庆幸有和他们玩,真得觉得愉快了很多 ^^ 被他们的气氛给感染了~

虽然迷惘... 但我相信这只是其中一个挫折~ 我不应该经不起打击...
让我难过的,不是因为我跌倒了...而是跌到之后该怎么站起来~ 这几天...我会慢慢思考,想出自己该走的路~

难过已经过去了~ 我不会再让自己消极的~ 要重新...站起来!! ^^

Aza!~ 笑*7* 个~~~ hiak hiak hiak (刺激过渡... 笑得有点奸 ><")

Sunday, August 16, 2009

::Michael Bolton - Now That I Found You::

Now That I Found You, the song that is currently played on my page. I get to know this song few years ago when i'm addicted to 'How am i suppose to live without you', feel interested in his music and decided to search more from him~

It's a really nice and romantic song with meaningful lyric~

Recently listened back to the song while browsing through my music folder, and fell in love with the song again ^^

Love Michael Bolton's voice~ a bit husky... but it's so touching~

The song express the love of a man, when he finally found the right girl for his life, the love that he'll never find again... the lyric is simple but yet touching~

Just love the song ^^




Lyric:

I can still remember
When all I had was time
A time when I had nothin'
But this empty heart of mine
When I needed inspiration
When the night was all I knew
You were the light shinin' into my life
The reason for all the love I'm feelin'

CHORUS
Now that I've found you
I don't know how I lived without you
I don't know how I survived without your love
Now that I've found you
I only know I'd be lost without you
I found the love
That I'll never find again
'Cause all I ever needed
And all I ever wanted
Has come true
I found it all now that I've found you


I could've searched forever
And never realized
The treasure of a lifetime
Was the love inside your eyes
When I reach for inspiration
In your touch, it's always there
Givin' me faith every step of the way
Givin' me all I ever needed


CHORUS

And every step of the way
Gonna dedicate my heart to you
Promise you my world forever
Pledgin' my love my whole life through



::Results coming out soon::

The result for my exam sitting in June is going to be released tomorrow.

So nervous and afraid ><"

Hopefully the result will be fine~

hm... Aza!!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

::Farewell for Jesmond::

13.08.09 - Our sport club had organized a farewell lunch for our colleague, Jesmond in Li Garden~

and for the very first time... most of our staffs are present ^^ except cherylyn that need to pick up her daughter from sch~ if not, it's going to be the perfect family photo~ ^^

It's regret to see him leaving co. after so many years of service and had reached the position where he is now~ but i believe, he got his own reason and planning~

everytime seeing any colleague leaving company...i'll wonder how's the situation will be when it's my turn ^^

anyway~ we gave him a lumix as farewell gift and he seems really appreciate it too~




and emily is so cute and funny that keep on snapping photo for the dishes and the drawing on wall ^^ (anythg can be the model for our photo hahaha~~)





and of course... not forget about my fav sprite ^^




and finally... some normal photo ><"







and the group photo:






Wish Jesmond the best of luck in his future endeavors ^^