::不安全感 ... 请消失::

不安全感，请快点离我远远的... 我不想再继续被你纠缠... ><

我觉得好辛苦，好累... 但我就是没办法说出原因. 也许，是我自己也不知道自己想要得是什么吧~ 我只知道，心里有很多的顾虑，烦恼着，担心着...

我常说，生活是自己选择的. 想要什么样的生活，只要努力去达到就好. 但当自己越来越靠近现实时，才发觉，所谓的坚持或梦想...是那么易碎的~ 当越来越看清，我根本达不到自己想要的生活时，我会害怕...很没安全感... 但更多的，是对自己失望.

我承认我懦弱. 面对现实，我总会屈服... 忽然觉得，生活都是不由己的...有得选择，谁不想过自己梦想的生活呢?...有些事情，不管你付出再多努力，都无法改变已固定的模式. 当你很想很想，很努力的去改变一件事情时，却发觉无能为力，那种无奈...失望，真的很心痛...

我知道是我自己想太多了，但内心的不安全感，不断的...拉扯得我好累...

我希望可以找到内心的平静，可以重拾对生活的憧憬. 不要再不快乐了 ...

::2010::

2010年了~ 忙得...现在才有时间 update blog~ 才 2010 的第一个星期而已，疲惫和懒散的坏嗜好又出来了 ^^"

又要再重回公司学校两头跑的日子了~ 好辛苦...超讨厌的 ><" 好想快快读完书，不想再烦学业了...无形的压力haiz~

而且假期也没了~ *cries*... 要等到新年才有了~

看回去年的自己，感觉...经历了，也成长了许多~ 尤其是在感情方面~ ^^

好朋友出外读书拉... 还有，开始了一段新感情~ 2009，就像是一个转折点. 让我成长了，也更确定了自己对人生的看法~

只想对他说，谢谢你，走进了我的生命，带给我快乐和幸福... 我会永远都那么的珍惜这一段感情 ^~^

新的一年，真得很希望自己可以做到想做的，想达到的目标. 不管是感情，工作或学业也好，都希望自己有那股*毅力*可以去完成, 不要每年都只是嘴巴说说罢了 ><" 也希望新的一年，我可以成为更好的一个人 ^^

加油~~ Aza!! ^^



J~*特别的早餐*~A

02.01.2010 - 我们第一次，一起制做早餐 -D.I.Y Breakfast- ^^

本来是说好要准备早餐给他吃的. 可是他说也要join in d making~ ^^ 前一个晚上，下着雨，还是去搜集材料了~ 因为很临时才准备，差点就买不到火腿和面包了~~ 幸好最后材料都凑得齐... 而且我一个人提议做早餐，却好像出动了全家的女兵 ^^"

本来要做早餐的人是我，但妹妹听到了，也邀他的dear参一份~ ^^ 而且很巧合的，当天我们两对情侣都各自穿上黑与白. 我们是白色的那对 ^^

经过手忙脚乱一番，终于都把早餐给搞定了~~ hehe... 而且，重点，sandwich 好好吃哦!! ^^ 是材料配得好吧,哈哈~~

自己做的早餐果然比较好吃哦~ hehe...


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准备的材料...^^





大师在下厨...



手忙脚乱就为了烤土司...^^"



Dear 做给我的早餐~~



我做的那一份~ ^^





大大熊 & 小龟... ^^



Me & Dear ^~^

::A New Year, New Sem...::

Tomorrow start new class le~~ very 'bae gam guan' ><" not enough holiday ar~~

Really hate to get back to the sch life where i always need rushing for sch and falling asleep during class ><"

wish me all d best in 2moro 1st class ^^ wahahha...

*Merry Christmas 2009!~*

*Merry Christmas to all my dearest friends and family!!~*

Wish you have a Happy X'mas & Blessed New Year!~ ^^

This year, as usual, we attended the Midnight Mass with Ade at St. Joseph's Cathedral. But it's more special this year cos... my dear is with me to celebrate this special day~ ^^ feel sorry to him cos knowing that he's busy with work that night and we have to wake up early the next day to headed to Permai Beach. Can feels that he's tired and keep on yawning for the whole session... sorry dear ^^

Met Lee Nee & Cindy too~ ^^ miss them a lot~ it reminds me the times we spent together during our high sch~

It's Xmas! so... of course i had to prepare something special for my fren & also my dear... ^^

But... for guy, really had no idea what gift should i give... so end up i decided to just get a cute Christmas stocking with a 'deer' on it ^^ (hope all the 'wishes' I put inside for dear will be realized... ^^)

Thanks to Ade for the gift as well!~ feel sweet that though we seldom got the chance to get together after our high sch, but we'll still gather and celebrate together in this special day ^^


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Gift to dear... ^^





Gift from dear... ^^





*Day Trip to Beach*

As we're all having holiday today, so we had a day trip to Permai Beach together with andy's cousin Erwin and Jolyn. 3 couples were there~ ^^

Thanks to them for organizing the trip~ They're vy easy going person n feel nice to spent times with them~ ^^

We had a good times, but was extremely tired after coming back to kch. and my skin color... ><" nearly sunburn... so ugly now~


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The Giant's footstep haha...



Dear was so excited to fly his kite... but too bad the kite is not "guai" ^^





and we had our lunch at Teo Seafood after that. This is the 6 "kepala" we ordered as according to the tauke nio ^^

::091218 - A beautiful day::

今天是假期。很难得的一天，我可以和 dear 相处这么久的时间 ^^ 因为平常都很少有机会可以这么相处，所以真得很珍惜...

只想和他说一声，对不起. 我知道你常为了陪我，赶上赶下的...不断往返，很累... 我也知道你已经尽了力了，辛苦你了... 我没想过要埋怨，反而只想学会体谅. 但我，天资比较蠢吧 ^^ 总会无心的伤害到你... 我懂，我说了些话，也许让你很失望... 但我真的无心的... 对不起.

今天的快乐，是你，送给我最棒的礼物... ^^ 我会永远收藏着...


::X-mas Caroling Night::

Thank to Ade for inviting us to attend the caroling night tonight~ ^^ we had a good time...

It's a very simple and relaxing activity... and we really enjoy the harmonies singing~ ^^


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